(how my period initiated me into a life of success and feminine flow one bleed at a time)
My moon started flowing last night.
Usually my first moon day is one of release, rage, wilderness, heaviness. I feel tired and very self-critical, judgmental. Basically all the things that I haven’t felt peace with the past cycle, come to the surface and cut me like knives.
It’s not very pretty.
Not very aesthetic and so I often shy away from people around that time.
I just want to go within and be with me.
I still remember the days I used to just push through this phase of my cycle.
I’d just get stuff done like any other day of the month.
How did I never click that my moon has superpowers?
Well…. simple answer: we just don’t receive education on this. Having a period is at the most “an annoying thing you’ve gotta handle in secret every month”. Get the tampons and get on with it, … gosh… isn’t that cray?
On my first moon days especially I need extra care, extra walls, extra boundaries, extra alone time, extra zooming out. For myself, for my body, for my balance. The cramps, the back pain, the breast swelling, the brain fog. They all take center stage.
So now, I send the lover off. Postpone calls. Pick up a journal, a warm blanket and snuggle up with a cup of tea. I cry. I release. I roll up like a foetus and just day dream. When my moon comes over for a visit, I know better solutions. I relinquish in there, I allow myself to feel. I let the purge of life to stream through and wash over me.
How did I get here?
1) dumping the pill
2) flow lifestyle sync
3) the menstrual cup
6) period vs ovulation and fertility
The abortion in February 2016. Indirectly this is related with my moon, because I was so in sync with my flow that I noticed immediately that I was pregnant. I even wrote in my diary about 2 weeks before the test, that I had a feeling I could be pregnant (this was around 1 week after conception) because I was “abnormally full of energy” before my cycle was due. The procedure happened very early on in the pregnancy which I believe was very beneficial. Meeting my Spirit Baby completely grounded me into the knowing that having an abortion was the right thing to do for me and him.
I had a copper coil placed in around the same time, because I didn’t want to take hormones anymore. There’s a 2.5 year journey of pain almost every day, even if just slightly and very very heavy periods. Thank god I had oils.
7) womb awareness
This whole experience actually set me off to connect so deeply with my womb, her wisdom and all things related to the feminine and masculine. Moving from wounded/disempowered to aligned/empowered. As with every aspect of growth, there’s a physical, an emotional, a mental and an energetic layer.I quit the toxic relationship in May 2016 and this set me off to exploring my sexuality through freedom and joy. I connected with over 30 lovers platonically, sensually or sexually. I discovered about pleasure and my multi-orgasmic body. Rooting into my body for guidance, through feeling and even more sophisticated tools of awareness, deep inner work and spiritual-somatic practices.
8) moon blood rituals
Right when I came out officially with my online biz. Huge downloads set me off like woohoo. I offered my blood in every country on my world trip that I bled in, sometimes even created rituals with flowers and ashes to send into the earth.
9) healing and education
Even the PMS symptoms have begun to subside dramatically. I used to curl over for days before my period would come along. Headaches and brainfog. Duh!
I began signing clients with ease, understanding that polyamory wasn’t quite up my scale, I’d set boundaries like second-nature. If people feel off, or not aligned I notice it right away. My psychic gifts shoot through the skies.
I just write up a few ideas, share from my own wild heart, have a blast with those gorgeous ladies and we do the goal-setting the goddessy way.
It gets to feel effortless because I know it’s the best way. My soul always wanted it that way: connected with my body, trusting the process, the cycles, the flow.
Connected. Free. Nourished. Deeply deeply supported.Your body knows. Listen to her.
They want to be seen, heard and loved.
Your Soul is deeply intertwined with your womb.
There’s real magic in you.
Sending you so much love beautiful soul